Friday, October 15, 2010

relax & breathe

i just need to breathe.  i need to realize that simple, trivial things in  life, do not matter.  i need to decide now that i don't need to please other people.  i don't need to feel like i have to be perfect so that other people aren't disappointed.  i don't know why it bothers me so much.  it being what everyone else thinks.  for some reason i have always cared.  i am a people pleaser.  and it is not good. i hate how i feel when i don't "please" people.  why do i care?  what does it matter what other people think?  

does it matter if things don't go perfect the first time?  i need to just move on.  if at first i don't succeed try, try again.  it's okay if i don't do well on test and audition type things.  if i fail the first time i just need to pick myself up and try again.  for some reason i feel that if i fail the first time it's the end of the world.  but it's not!  megan, you need to relax and breathe!  it is oookayyyy.  life moves on.  in the end, what do these worldly things matter.  they aren't going to make a difference or matter after this life. 

remember that the Lord is always there for you.  i shouldn't get so nervous over things.  it's not the end of the world.  He won't ever leave me.  i forget to rely on Him.  i know that's awful, but i do.  in all my freaking out and stressing i often times forget that the Lord is there by my side, ready to help along, if only i'd let Him. it is my personal goal to work harder on these things.  I am going to try and simplify my life a little bit.  stop worrying so much about what others think and stop putting so much pressure on myself.  i know that I can do it.  i have the Lord on my side.  "for with God nothing shall be impossible" {john 1:37}.

1 comment:

Regina said...

For some reason, I totally know where you're coming from on this. Sometimes it's good to take a step back and look at the whole picture. And never loose sight of that eternal perspective. Because we may think things matter, when in the end they don't!